I’m digging deep into my well guarded vault for this one. The weight of the world is on my shoulders, or at least, that’s how I see it. I’m at the corner of Panic and Misery streets. How did I get here? Will I find my way home? What is my purpose?
I’m going through the motions, today. So, I’ll fake it ’til I make it. Not my favorite saying, but it works.
I remind myself that I don’t need to do this life alone. Is it all or nothing? It doesn’t have to be. It’s my choice. Oh, you mean I have choices? Of course I do….
When I came to the crossroads at the corners of Panic and Misery, I could have pitched a tent and stayed, but I know that life is short. Cancer has taught me this. I don’t want to stay too long at this deserted end of town.
I’m spending a great deal of time at home these days and exploring what to do with the rest of my time, seemed to catapult me into a state of confusion. I began to ask myself some soul searching questions. The main one being – What is one thing I have been wanted to do on a regular basis? Well, besides stop running away from the fact that I have cancer. It’s time to come full circle. Whatever this means. I quickly realized, after joining a Head and Neck cancer support group on Facebook, that I rather enjoy being immersed in the stories of these cancer warriors These brave, courageous individuals are fighting a horrifying demon. I am fighting right along with these folks.
Some of my dear friends are now gone and I was given my own Expiration Date, but for reasons that only God knows, I’m still here. All I need to know is that there are reasons.
I see the strength in my fellow warriors that FACE It Head On….These men and women have encouraged me to do this. Most of them don’t even know that I’m being pushed in a whole new direction due to reading the stories of jaw replacements, throat surgeries, partial tongue removal, and so much more that it would fill a whole page. Thank you Warriors for pulling me out of that dark place. Cheers to all of us for the work we do to kick cancer to the curb. Until next week, K xo
I remind myself that I don’t need to do this life alone. Is it all or nothing? It doesn’t have to be. It’s my choice. Oh, you mean I have choices? Of course I do….
When I came to the crossroads at the corners of Panic and Misery, I could have pitched a tent and stayed, but I know that life is short. Cancer has taught me this. I don’t want to stay too long at this deserted end of town.
I’m spending a great deal of time at home these days and exploring what to do with the rest of my time, seemed to catapult me into a state of confusion. I began to ask myself some soul searching questions. The main one being – What is one thing I have been wanted to do on a regular basis? Well, besides stop running away from the fact that I have cancer. It’s time to come full circle. Whatever this means. I quickly realized, after joining a Head and Neck cancer support group on Facebook, that I rather enjoy being immersed in the stories of these cancer warriors These brave, courageous individuals are fighting a horrifying demon. I am fighting right along with these folks.
Some of my dear friends are now gone and I was given my own Expiration Date, but for reasons that only God knows, I’m still here. All I need to know is that there are reasons.
I see the strength in my fellow warriors that FACE It Head On….These men and women have encouraged me to do this. Most of them don’t even know that I’m being pushed in a whole new direction due to reading the stories of jaw replacements, throat surgeries, partial tongue removal, and so much more that it would fill a whole page. Thank you Warriors for pulling me out of that dark place. Cheers to all of us for the work we do to kick cancer to the curb. Until next week, K xo
