A True Story by Kelly U’Ren Moody
Cancer you have fucked with the wrong person. Don’t tell me that I have up to 15 months to live. As the words roll off my tongue, I secretly think, I don’t want anyone to know that a bit of anger is creeping in. Keep up the people pleasing facade. I had a bit of an argument with Scott the other night. I don’t know what night . The days are starting to blend together. I could tell before it even started that he was not in a good place. I knew that there was something he wanted to say and here it came. “You have no idea what I’m going through.” Really….My witty comeback was, “You have no idea what I’m going through, but your life will go on and away I retreated to the bedroom to cry ugly tears of resentment. The sadness and pain I wads dealing with seemed insurmountable. I began to calm myself and realized that I didn’t have a clue what he was going through. He was my caretaker and my rock, but my rock was beginning to crumble.
My name is Kelly U’Ren Moody. I’m 53 years old and live in Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania. I was diagnosed with a head and neck cancer called oral cancer in October of 2014. Squamous Cell Carcinoma to be exact. This is a true account of some of the most memorable days – both good and bad – of my experiences with cancer, but also of my love’s battle. You could say it’s been somewhat of a nightmare, but I choose to look at it in a different way. It’s been a journey and I am a warrior who will fight the battle until my last dying breath. I’ve endured countless surgeries, treatments, and so much more. My cast of characters range from laugh out loud funny, to eccentric, mind boggling, and everything in between. I have never told these stories to anyone, but my significant other, Scott – Scooter, as he affectionately became known, is one of the strongest human beings that I’ve ever met. As you’ll discover, we have faced challenges that I would not wish upon anyone, but we’ve been able to keep our sanity. Well, mostly. I like to say that my toolbox for life is filled with courage, determination, tenacity, persistence. laughter, and last but certainly not least, faith in God above. My goal is that by sharing some of my own tales, I might put a smile on someone’s face or give them even just one ounce of hope. While the rest of the world carried on, this is a snapshot of our journey.
To all my friends that have lost the battle and for those who are still fighting a courageous battle….This one’s for you.